To like or not like

Venting session with Lauren, just trying to be real… feel free to skip this post…just saying I warned you.

Last night I had a hard time falling asleep, my mind wouldn’t shut down and let go of the thoughts from the day. And what was my brain focusing on? Instagram and social media. At first I thought Instagram was an awesome concept, I loved editing pictures of my kids and then seeing other pictures that my friends posted from their day. But it has now become just another thing to keep up with. As much I wish I could say that I am 100% confidant and never ever ever compare myself to my friends on social media…well it would just not be true. It’s ridiculous how many times I go to edit a picture and then come up with a caption and then can’t decide what to type, or should I come up with a clever hashtag? and then I delete the whole thing. #crazy #iknow. But please tell me I am not the only one.

I was reflecting on how tough our world is these days. I am grateful for Facebook sometimes, it helps to keep up with family and old friends and I love that. But then there is the lie of Instagram and Facebook- where someone’s world could be shown in a light that seems to be so much better than someone else’s. You put yourself out there, hoping to be “liked” by others. I worry about my kids and what they are going to have to deal with in the next few years. We were out to dinner the other night and I noticed a table with 4 girls who looked to be about middle school age. All 4 were sitting there, not talking, and were busy on their smartphones. I was later reflecting on that observation, because I obviously was battling other things at the dinner table, but I was thinking about how hard middle school was. I hated it. It was awkward and the girls were mean. I dreaded Mondays and hearing about what those girls did over the weekend. And at that time there was no Facebook or Instagram. We didn’t even have our own cell phones yet. So I can only imagine how much tougher middle school is these days for kids. Not looking forward to that.

Anyway, in order to let it go last night, I started to think about what is the point of social media and why am I a part of it. Is it helping me stay connected to friends? Am I becoming a better person because of it? A better mother, wife? I do know I spend more time checking my newsfeed than I do spending time in prayer. And thats probably a problem. So I finally fell asleep with some sort of resolution.  By just deleting the Instagram and Facebook apps off of my phone for a little while, the temptation to check up on what else is going in the world while I am sitting on the couch holding one of my kids or while we are playing outside will be gone. Instead of checking updates while sitting in the carpool line, I could be praying a rosary, etc. I wish I could say I was strong enough to keep the apps on my phone and just not check them as often, but I know that’s not the case.   So that’s that.  We’ll see how it goes.

Social media rant over. :)

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